it's not that i've been avoiding you, except maybe i have been a little. it's like we are distant pen-friends. but we're going to remedy this situation here and now.
maternity leave has been much different than i expected. i thought oh, i will be so bored at home by myself, i'll have nothing to do! evidently this is something people who have never had a baby say, because dude, i'm busy. taking care of a little baby is a full time job, i don't really get to sit around and do nothing. he eats, which takes about 30-40 minutes, then maybe a diaper change, short nap, and 2 hours (from the time he started eating last) it starts all over again. i don't have time to be bored. i don't have time to pee, or eat, or feed the dogs, though i am more used to the routine by now. and i can't believe how fast time has passed. i only have one week of leave left! holy shit! then back to work and jude is off to the babysitter, which is a whole other issue. what am i going to do!? i'll miss out on my daily reruns of old episodes of ER!
so i have been busy. i could say that's my excuse for not writing more. but i also feel like i'm in an awkward place. i hate the term "mommyblogger" it feels... slimy. boring. gross. but at the same time i have a baby and that's pretty much all i do, so all the posts i want to write are about baby stuff. i've been wanting to write so many things about breastfeeding, and babysitters, and everything else but i've been holding off for fear of alienating you with all the baby talk.
so i'm sorry, dearest reader, if you think reading about baby stuff is boring but i'm going to write about what's going on. and what's going on is baby. and if that makes me a mommyblogger, i guess that's what i am. and i'm just going to have to come to terms with that. i was reading through some of my older posts through the end of my pregnancy and realizing how much i miss writing here and getting my thoughts out. so i'm going to write about whatever i damn well please. even if it's just about stupid babies. and i hope you'll continue to join me.