dun dun dun... the first day report is in:
we can all breathe a much needed sigh of relief, or at least i can. when i went to pick jude up from his first day with his babysitter yesterday she said he had been fine, great even! drank from his bottles, napped, did non-screaming baby things. i mean i think he is an easy baby but i have no comparison, so to hear someone else say it felt great. so hooray- one less thing to worry about and no more bottles at home! we can enjoy our time together with a lot less fuss and only have to worry about how we're going to actually pay her.
of course i still/will miss him desperately while i'm at work but it did surprisingly make the evening much nicer. i wasn't burned out on taking care of the baby all day, there was plenty of energy to cuddle and play and eat and actually enjoy him instead of... worrying.
aaahhhhhhhhhhh. it feels so sweet.